“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, beautiful, talented, sucessful? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.” marianne williamson
i want this challenge. i want to live up to this challenge. i want to cut the strings that keep me from moving and MOVE. i want the space to breathe and love and think and pray, to disconnect and connect, to be broken and rebuilt. i want to intimately touch and be touched by landscapes and skys and warm hearts i’ve never met. i want to grow in the way one can when removed from everything familiar. i want to be naked and i want to be changed.
on a lighter and less cheesy note: i want to eat voraciously (which i do anyway) after riding for 8 hours. i want the kind of muscles one must surely develop from riding 4000 miles. i want to soak in hot springs in idaho, and jump off stuff into random bodies of oh-so-refreshing water. i want to wake up with the sun instead of my alarm clock. i want to know if tomatoes in oregon taste different than tomatoes in virginia. i want to poop in the woods.
i do not want to meet bears. or real crazy tan lines. i’ll take the tan lines over the bears though.